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I’ve been having those pretty sick violent fantasies recently, so I want to hear other people opinion about it. I just want to know if anyone else ever had that kind of things going in their mind.
So. I’m 17.y.o. girl. I’m extremely shy, girly ,etc. My life is insanely boring and monotonic. But it’s been about a few months when I started having those fantasies about hurting somebody. Being in some kind of gang, do dangerous stuff . (I know ,that sounds pretty stupid ,because of my gender and age 😀 ) I don’t know,maybe that’s because my life is really boring ,I’m a ‘good girl’ . I love watching sport/action movies , like Fight Club, 13 , The Fighter etc. Could those fantasies be the result of my passion to movies? Every time I watch a ‘cool’ movie, where the main character is some kind of ‘badass’ , I start thinking how cool it would be to be him, how interesting and exciting.
I know,everybody has weird, emberassing fantasies, but It’s all the time in my mind. I want some drama in my life, to HAVE A SECRET. In real life… I don’t have ‘a story’ . I mean I’m boring. I always have fantasies about having a cancer,or getting hit by a car. getting shot (and surviving of course), that I could tell that to people, everybody would be shocked. That I’d have life experience or something.
My friend was a junkie , he went to rehab. he told me about how he was stealing cars and stealing stuff from home to buy drugs and all. I was sooo fascinated by his life. Of course,it’s nothing to be proud of, but people like that seem to be so interesting.

I always say to myself that I should get a life. Stop thinking, start doing. I wonder if it’s good to have those fantasies. They’re nothing as long as it’s just fantasies.
Do I need ‘to get some help’ ,or change anything in my life ? to change my thinking?

Everyone has a violent side regardless of gender or age.
It sounds like that side is reaching out to you out of boredom. You should listen to it, but only in controlled settings, like video games or paintball or whatnot. You don’t want to get sucked into someone’s drug drama just because it’s interesting and different…trust me on that. I was a needle junkie in my teens and that sh!t is still in recovery.

If you want a "secret" you should indulge that, but not in a destructive way. ANd that includes being promiscuous. Far too many young women do that thinking they’re edgy or compelling, but it leaves them cold and possibly pregnant/diseased. You can consider the occult, lockpicking, hacking, learning a new language (esp Chinese or Japanese), cryptology, building models of war crime sites or execution implements, etc. USE YOUR IMAGINATION, that’s the key. Don’t mimic because your only real secret then would be that you are a poser.

Good luck.